Author: annkaemingk

I've only read two books about "death."  And one of them was really more about Heaven, not really so much death because the author totally lived to tell his tale of Heaven.  Ok, so I've read only one.  One book by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross.  She's totally famous because of those 5 Stages of Grief model.  I … Continue reading g-cycles

Pretty sweet, right? Two trophies.  A winning engine cut in half by our water-jet.  There was a ceremony where these two bad boys would be presented on the evening of Saturday, February 3rd.  We had to ship them to TX.  The shipping company told Jon they would arrive on Friday.  Perfect. And then... Oh shit. … Continue reading A Tale of Two Trophies

HA!  I just realized that almost all my "titles" have included question marks.  What's up with that? No.  For reals.  Why do I do that? I'm working on what this blog will be "all about."   If you know me, even a baby bit, you know I'm kinda all over the place.  I don't necessarily … Continue reading ???

Why did I start this blog?  What is it's purpose?  What do I want to add to the world? everyone wants to add value, right? everyone (unless you're a psychopath) wants to help and make a difference - even if it's in just their very small corner of the world.  and if you have something … Continue reading the WHY

Yes.  There is this twisted grotesque ideal deep in my subconscious of looking like an 8th grade boy - no curves.  Lean muscle. But I have to give props ot Amerie and this video in particular for being a powerful image of what beautiful IS. I was living in Santa Monica and teaching for LAUSD … Continue reading A Tribute to Amerie

Do you have this? You KNOW something in your head.  There's logic behind it.  But you can't shake or get away from the FEELING?  Or the desire / need / craving?  Maybe it's this way with all additions / obsessions / distortions... I have constant NEED to feel skinny. Skinnier. Skinniest. This all started back … Continue reading The Battle

Has every color been claimed as a favorite? Has every song ever been claimed as a favorite? All the restaurants and coffee shops and dive bars...  Is there someone out there who stumbled across the locale, decided to check it out, and fall in love? Tonight I was driving home from an event and noticed … Continue reading Wonderings

On this day.  January 18.  Eight years ago.  Jon sent me a friend request. Big whoop? Um, no. You see...  This was divine intervention.  Or something... Friday night I had a dream.  This was pretty typical - I was newly "separated and filed for divorce" and saw Chicago Therapist on Saturday mornings.  Friday to Saturday … Continue reading fate? miracle? karma?

Sometimes you kick. Sometimes you get kicked. I look around unsatisfied                                                                                         … Continue reading Kick